As humans, we are inclined to label and categorize all things in life: activities, feelings, results, and people. Once we categorize it we determine if we need to manipulate it. For example, if it’s a good day then we try to categorize why it’s a good day. If it’s a bad day, we try to diagnose and remove the source of bad. But what about a reality that the day is not good or bad?
Today was a day. Nothing significant happened. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. And when I was sitting in my chair at some point, I found myself attempting to categorize it. “What’s wrong? Are you sad? Do you feel well? Why aren’t you busy?”
And I stopped. I realized it was ok to just sit. It’s ok to have silence. It’s completely acceptable to not have a category, a list, or a label. It’s in these moments that you pay attention to what is happening inside of you. There is a realization that the absence of happiness does not mean sadness. The absence of productivity does not equal laziness. Perhaps the presence of silence is equivalent to the presence of peace. Hence the slang we throw around so loosely, “seeking peace and quiet.”
It’s not often that these golden nuggets come across my calendar, but when they do, I relish their pure nothingness for all that they are. There’s no need to look for something to do or call on someone to fill a void. There is only this beautiful moment in time that can be utilized doing nothing. “In the silence, I rediscover who I am.” (j. francis)
If you are blessed with an opportunity to truly breathe in the air of nothingness, do not fret. Don’t waste the moment rubbing the knuckles of your hands with worry over the lack of worry. Don’t create negative energy because you currently have nobody else sending it your way. Relish this moment of peace , sit back and listen to the nothingness. Silence isn’t empty. Sometimes it’s full of answers.
As best summarized in the words of Mother Teresa, “The trees, the flowers, the plants grow in silence. The stars, the sun, the moon move in silence. Silence gives us a new perspective.”
Sometimes, it’s the nothing that matters.